You know what I miss? Writing.

Just simply writing here in general. I’ve never really been one to journal in my adult years. Sure, I had diaries growing up, but whenever I needed to write out my feelings or whatever I was going through I always had a blog to type to.

The public piece of that doesn’t scare me. If anything I think it brings about a fun enforcement factor there. My belief is that if anyone can find any inkling of my post to relate to then I know I’ve succeeded at my role as a blogger while simultaneously helping myself in releasing emotions. In some ways it’s a mutually beneficial relationship – the one between myself and my reader.

Life has been so fast moving lately.

While I’m normally up for the go go go theme, something about this round has been so different. It’s like all aspects of my life have been waves crashing into me, coming at me. Instead of running into the waves with the sun beaming on me and the sand between my toes – I feel abruptly pulled through a salty undertow where I can’t really catch my breath.

Is this what 30 is? LOL.

If I’m being honest with myself I think life has been this way for a while now. That undertow though. It’s really pulling me in and out to question where my priorities really are.

Is that such a bad thing? Prioritizing?

Definitely not – I do it all day long at work. The challenge seems to be more in my personal life. When you position yourself as someone who likes to do everything without sacrifice, it almost inevitably sets you up for failure at some point. This is a lesson that I never really had to learn, but boy is it hitting me hard now.

The days where I feel most in control of what’s happening around me are the ones where I can wake up and embrace my day on my own terms. Usually that means:

• Getting up and out of bed to stretch (team skip the snooze)
• Enjoy coffee with Ben while the pups play
• Complete my morning skincare routine
• Sneak in a meditation before work
• Workout before noon (move the rings!!)
• Post my content across channels early, heck bonus points for when I’m sending through content to you that was already previously scheduled

Slow and steady might win the race, but why does that mean that fast and hard has to crash and burn? Ultimately I don’t think it’s an equally balanced scenario; however, when it comes to life lately – I think I need to get my slow and steady under control before I can jump back to the fast and hard.